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*you are French,' and began to present his piece. As I saw that he was rather intoxicated, and did not know but that he might actually fire out of mere wantonness, I sprang up towards him, and told him, if he doubted my word, he might take me as his prisoner to the English camp, but that I certainly was an English clergyman. This pacified him, and he behaved with great respect. The surgeon, on examining the wound, said the man must die, and so left him. At length, I found an opportunity of returning, as I much wished, in order to recover from distraction of mind, and give free scope to reflection. I lay down on the border of a clump of shrubs or bushes, with the field of battle in my view; and there lifted up my soul to God. Mournful as the scene was, yet I thanked God that he had brought me to see a specimen, though a terrible one, of what men by nature are. May the remembrance of this day ever excite me to pray and labour more for the propagation of the Gospel of peace. Then shall men love one another. Nation shall not lift up sword against nation, neither shall they learn war any more. The Blue Mountains, at a distance to the eastward, which formed the boundary of the prospect, were a cheering counterpart to what was immediately before me: for there I conceived my beloved and honoured fellow-servants, companions in the kingdom and patience of Jesus Christ,* to be passing the days of their pilgrimage far from the world, imparting the truths of the precious Gospel to benighted souls. May I receive grace to be a follower of their faith and patience; and do you pray, my brother, as I know that you do, that I may have a heart more warm, and a zeal more ardent in the glorious cause. I marched back, the same evening, with the troops. The surf on the shore was very high, but, through mercy, we escaped that danger.

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The Missionaries of the United Brethren at Grunekloof and Gnadental, and those belonging to the London Missionary Society at Bethelsdorp.

when we came to our ship's station, we found she was gone having got under weigh some hours before. The sea ran high. Our men were almost spent, and I was very faint from hunger; but, after a long struggle, we reached an Indiaman about midnight."

For the detail of the events which succeeded that most distressing day,and the incidents which transpired during his continuance at the Cape, we refer to the Journal.

January 10th." About five the commodore fired a gun, which was instantly answered by all the men-ofwar. On looking out for the cause, we saw the British flag flying on the Dutch fort. Pleasing as the cessation of warfare was, I felt considerable pain at the enemy's being obliged to give up their fort and town and every thing else, as a conquered people, to the will of their victor. I hate the cruel pride and arrogance that makes men boast over a conquered foe. And every observation of this sort which I hear cuts me to the very heart; whether from nature or from grace, I do not know; but I had rather be trampled upon than be the trampler. I could find it more agreeable to my own feelings to go and weep with the relatives of the men whom the English have killed, than to rejoice at the laurels they have won."

January 12.-Sunday. "Very unlike a Sabbathday: the whole morning, till dinner-time, was taken up in working the ship from her place to a station nearer the shore: There was so few hands on board, that I was obliged to take my place at the capstan. The wind now blows a hurricane over Table Mountain. I feel myself a guilty creature. Hide not thy face from me, O God."

January 13." Went on shore to Cape Town, and took lodgings. Walked about the Company's gardens, and General Jansen's, whose family I saw. I felt much for the unfortunate females.-From the first moment I arrived, I had been anxiously inquiring about Dr. Vanderkemp. I heard at last, to my no small delight, that he was now in Cape Town. But it was

long before I could find him. At length I did. He was standing outside of the house, silently looking up at the stars. A great number of black people were sitting around. On my introducing myself, he led me in, and called for Mr. Read.. I was beyond measure delighted at the happiness of seeing him too. The circumstance of meeting with these beloved and highly honoured brethren, so filled me with joy and gratitude for the goodness of God's providence, that I hardly knew what to do."

January 14.-"Continued walking with Mr. Read till late. He gave me a variety of curious information respecting the mission. He told me of his marvellous success among the Heathen-how he had heard them among the bushes pouring out their hearts to God. At all this, my soul did magnify the Lord, and my spirit rejoiced in God my Saviour." "

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"Walked with brother Read, and was so charmed with his spiritual behaviour, that I fancied myself in company with _David Brainerd. Sat at night in the open air, with Table Mountain before me, and endeavoured to meditate on Isaiah xi. 2."

January 19.-"I went to a church lately built for the instruction of slaves. There were about one hundred sent from fifty different families. A black who was employed in lighting the candles, was pointed out to me as one who was to go as a Missionary to Madagascar."

January 20.-"Walking home I asked Dr. Vanderkemp if he had ever repented of his undertaking. No, said the old man, smiling; and I would not exchange my work for a kingdom."

January 26.- Dear Dr. Vanderkemp gave me a Syriac Testament, as a remembrance of him."

January 27.-"Preached at the hospital. Many were in tears.'

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January 28." Walked with brother Read in the gardens, and continued to have much conversation on the mission,on our conversion, and on the work of grace in the heart. How profitable and heart-enlivening is

conversation on experimental religion, when carried on without pride or display of great experience! Preached at the hospital. In my walk home by the seaside, I sighed at thinking of *** with whom Í bad stood on the shore before coming away, and of the long seas that were rolling betwixt us; but felt cheerful and strong in spirit to fulfil the word of God."

January 30-"Rose at five, and began to ascend Table Mountain at six, with S*** and M*** I went on chiefly alone. I thought on the Christian life -what uphill work it is—and yet there are streams flowing down from the top, just as there was water coming down by the Kloof, by which we ascended. Towards the top it was very steep, but the hope of being soon at the summit, encouraged me to ascend very lightly. As the Kloof opened, a beautiful flamecoloured flower appeared in a little green hollow, waving in the breeze. It seemed to me an emblem of the beauty and peacefulness of heaven, as it shall open upon the weary soul when its journey is finished, and the struggles of the death-bed are over. We walked up and down the whole length, which might be between two and three miles, and one might be said to look round the world from this promontory. I felt a solemn awe at the grand prospect from which there was neither noise nor small objects to draw off my attention. I reflected, especially when looking at the immense expanse of sea on the East, which was to carry me to India, on the certainty that the name of Christ should at some period resound from shore to shore. I felt commanded to wait in silence, and see how God would bring his promises to pass.-We began to descend at half-past two. Whilst sitting to rest myself towards night, I began to reflect with deathlike despondency on my friendless condition. Not that I wanted any of the comforts of life, but I wanted those kind friends who loved me, and in whose company I used to find such delight after my fatigues. And then remembering that I should never see them more, I felt one of those keen pangs of misery that

occasionally shoot across my breast. It seemed like a dream, that I had actually undergone banishment from them for life; or rather like a dream, that I had ever hoped to share the enjoyments of social life. But, at this time, I solemnly renewed my self-dedication to God, praying that for his service I might receive grace, to spend my days in continued suffering, and separation from all I held most dear in this life-for ever. Amen.-How vain and transitory are the pleasures which the worldliness of my heart will ever be magnifying into real good!-The rest of the evening, I felt weaned from the world and all its concerns, with somewhat of a melancholy tranquillity.".

January 31.-"From great fatigue of body, was in doubt about going to the hospital, and very unwilling to go. However, I went, and preached with more freedom than ever I had done there. Having some conversation with Colonel ***, I asked him 'whether, if the wound he had received in the late engagement had been mortal, his profaneness would have recurred with any pleasure to his mind on a death-bed.' He made some attempts at palliation-though in great confusion; but bore the admonition very patiently."Febuary 5.-"Dr. Vanderkemp called to take leave. I accompanied him and brother Smith out of the town, with their two wagons. The dear old man showed much affection, and gave me advice and a blessing at parting. While we were standing to take leave, Koster, a Dutch Missionary, was just entering the town with his bundle, having been driven from his place of residence. Brother Read, also, appeared from another quarter, though we thought he had gone to sea. These, with Yons,* and myself, made up six Missionaries, who in a few minutes, all parted again."

In the commencement of the voyage from the Cape, which took place not many days after this short but most interesting meeting, Mr. Martyn's patience was exercised, as before, by the tediousness of the passage

*The Missionary, probably, destined for Madagascar.

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